For the past couple of months, I have been feeling like an animal trap in cubic box. Being tamed in 4 x 4 white box and unable to get out. It’s such a shitting feeling. This is probably why I feel bad for animals who are stuck in cages. The inability to run free. It can drive any mammal mad. Hence, I think I have gone MAD!
I am a girl that loves her freedom. Maybe a little too much. I value my independence too much to put a price tag on it. My ex could not understand this. The truth was my freedom/independence meant more to me than him. Lately, I feel like I am slowly losing the thing I value most. MY FREEDOM
Living in this small city surround by nothing but ordinary can make a girl like myself feel trap. Lets be honest, how many Starbucks and Subways does a city really need? Don’t get me wrong, I loved growing up in Cypress. Its a small community that follows traditions and a place that will never change. This is what I like about Cypress and why I want to leave it too. Everyday is groundhogs day. Same shit different day. There’s no surprises and everything works like clockwork.
Whether I like it or not Cypress will always be my home. However, home doesn’t feel like home anymore. I live in house with my sister, my mom and my mom’s husband. Its not the same home I grew up in or created memories in. That home is gone and that’s okay. My mom and her husband deserve to create new memories and build a new home. And, so do I.
Since the beginning of this year, I have been saying: “I want to move!” repeatedly. At the time, I didn’t know where or when, but now I know. And, I am so excited & nervous!! Most importantly, I get to be on my own again. Exploring a new city independently and having the freedom to do whatever I want. Although leaving my family and friends is going to be tough and I’ll miss them terribly….Getting a chance to move to Seattle with my best friend to get a fresh start was a no brainer. Let the countdown begin.